I took the test at depressedtest.com . It didn't really tell me anything I didn't know but I was still surprised by the results:
I didn't think Major Depression was that much, nor Bipolar. SAD, I KNOW that, it's TERRIBLE right now. Dysthymia, that's a given, I've been depressed most of my life. Cyclothymia, I suppose is more likely than Bipolar.
I already know I'm a wreck right now. I'm tired of being this way. Sometimes I really try to get out of it, get busy, make myself do stuff. But a lot of times I fail, I start & quit, or a just can't seem to get out of the chair. I'm afraid my family, mainly my spouse, is growing tired of me. I feel a bit like I did years ago when I was on Effexor and he confessed he was ready to leave cuz I was such a zombie. Wellbutrin isn't supposed to do that, it works differently, and yet I find myself stuck in muck. I've had a lot of health issues this year, which has been stressful, and possibly may be affecting how my antidepressant works in me, or maybe it's just petered out, or maybe I'm just immune now, or maybe I'm just a big lazy schmuck. I hate feeling this way. Part of me wants to stop them, see if I get a rebound mania like last time--even though I know how damaging that ended up being too.
I just feel so stuck lately.